i need a damn break. i need faith
-end-

i wanted to just post a one word post but haha
i stayed back in sch until 7. mon - today
crazy just to do sai gang
anw tmr last day of sch
happy or sad i dont know
theres still the same amt of stuff to do
maybe even more
that sucks ):

okay but im really gonna study this one week
haha no life right
and somemore almost everyday go back sch ):
someone please go burn down the school

anw result slip today
we have big monsters in our class -mr w chua ;D
im not one of them thats all
i heard in class " bring your textbooks home to study "
not said by a teacher
aren't we guai ?

whatever shit things that happen
i will take it in my stride
cuz i have
the one word- faith

-end-

this afternoon, went to help for teachers day rehearsals
and i went " huh... today tuesday only leh "
retarded ruoqi said " ohya hor "
and we spoke in made up tamil hahaha

but i really thought today was thursday or sth
oh well
its tuesday ONLY !
and these few days havnt been fun
(what few days ? its tuesday only right haha)

im planning on bringing a big umbrella to sch tmr (:
cos i think it'll rain
and my small umbrella exploded
iya u all kno what i mean..it exploded la

i dont feel like going to school
and i just wanna sleep

die physics test
die! die! die!
i mean i want the phy test to die
not the other meaning haha
ok im becoming retarded

-end-

i did my maths homework (:

well i think it was only 5 questions
but yay me
and i still have so much more overdue hw to do
im not going to do them until who knows ?
i am a bad bad example

i should keep psycho-ing myself into loving maths
i love maths i love maths i love maths <3

-end-
make something exciting happen tmr

snowed almost the whole day
freeeeeeeezing

there's a place that i know of
a place that i know of is there
the place that i know of is a nice place
sometimes that place is noisy
sometimes that place is peace
sometimes that place gives comfort
sometimes that place gives relief
sometimes that place gives realisation
sometimes that place is cold
sometimes that place is full of warmth
that place knows no worries
that place know no fears
i know someone in that place
there's just something about that place that makes u smile (:
my bestestbest friends house, the church
anw i chatted with louis the other day
here's a sneak preview

what is this world coming to O:
seriously
everything is so shocking @..@

ok anw this limhuizhe comes here everyday (?)
Hi huizhe ! (you should go away and do maths hw ya kno)
and thankyou ar, now i realise im abit retarded xp
like, what is this world coming to right !?! O:

and im really not born to do maths ):
maths makes me mad (rhymes !)

oya the other day..which is long ago
i heard
Check Yes Juliet - We The Kings
on the radio !
arghhh now we the kings is gonna be famous
and i will be so sick of their songs cos everybody will be listening to them
and i wont like them anymore D:

so i found
a rocket to the moon !
ok im starting to like these kindo songs..like abit hellogoodbye
and dunno how they do the effect to change the voice or sth
but nice right and its...i dunno wat genre wan




september holidays..
what holiday ?

-end-
and across the street is ?

today was a great day (:
until after lunch it was a bad day ):
so now's part of a bad day ):

here's how to have a great day !
1. tell yourself, tommorow's gonna be a great day !
2. in the morning of the great day !, tell yourself : today's gonna be a great day !
3. when you reach school, tell yourself : today's gonna be a great day !
4. tell other ppl : today's a great day ! + a big :D
5. you will have a great day !
6. enjoy your great day !

i am tired, very tired of everything
bestestbest friend whr are you ?
-end-

today was a long day
i thought it was the end of tuesday alr
too bad its not

i seem to have never ending stuff to do
im sick of all of them x..x
how i wish everything was like sec 2 agn...
go home and dunno wat to do, just watch tv
oh well !

and a happy thing happened today (:
although i was damn pissed in the morning
*drumroll*
i got 39/50 for chem HAH ! like yay ((:
and i really studied, so i feel i deserve it
and after i saw the marks
i felt a great big :D on my face
i was expecting mrs ng to say sth like '' well done, you've improved ''
cos like when i got the 6/dunno how much ( see bad things are meant to be forgotten)
she gave a short lecture and blahblahblah

but no ! she didnt say anything
and i purposely stood there for an extra half second la
waiting...
whatever right i should shutup cos like my great improvement is nth compared
to those who got full marks ya ?
haha

and i havnt told them about that pathetic 7
even if i do well for the rest im sure the 7 will blow everything
so sure cos its always
likedat
likeshit

oya the sad thing is that melinda changed chinese class !
and im sitting lonely-ly nxt to space
all because the nigel took the table and chair
so sad ): i dont even have a table to sit nxt to

and i'll just continue ranting on and on
cos i dont think anyone other than god and the other ppl in heaven reads this
who cares about what o.oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo1%
of the world population does or thinks ?

-end-
the bestestbest friend does miraculous things just to cheer you up
no kidding (;

i feel so mixed up now...
i did some maths, im happy
i still have so many things to do, im sad, worried, stressed
i went to the library again, oh yay......

im almost done with the book i borrowed a few hrs ago, (:
the story is happy sad nice, im happy sad...thats what stories do to you D:
alot of new words in the story...i found out their meanings, yay i feel cleverer
i just remembered agn i have to do so many things, i pity myself
i still havnt got back 3 papers, im scared..i hope i do well
those two papers were horrible, 24 and 7 hah.. how could i get a 7/40 ? -im sad

i read ytds post agn, i feel bad, happy, sad, comforted, worried, happy
whatever right..
tmr will be a great day
because i believe (:

-end-

the day was lousy and lazy and
full of horrible stuff i had to do but as usual, i didnt
and i felt disappointed in myself
like i keep telling myself i have to do whatever and whatever but i just didnt
i keep saying i will
but i lie to myself over and over again

i looked forward to stepping into church
i almost always did ever since con camp (:
so as i stepped into church, up the stairs, into that room
i felt that all the horrible stuff i had to do were dropped at the door step
any single thought of it. was just left outside
the feeling was so wonderful
not having to worry anymore

we sang, i felt your presence right after a few verses alr
so warm, so protected, so loved, like everything was taken care of
and as usual at praise and worship after the first song
i alr felt like crying
but i always nvr did
i would feel so stupid
they were tears of relief, tears of happiness, tears from you
why didnt i just let them roll
i just couldnt

but just being there with the wonderful music
i felt that we were in another world
with no worries
with no danger
i could feel your protection

but why was i still scared to get prayed over
i knew i wanted to go
but why didnt i ?

i know you spoke to me
'' you should go ''
why ? was what yours truely said
'' i dont know, you should just go ''
i know it was you
but my legs still didnt move
i know i wanted to talk to you so badly
what stopped me
i dont know
i regret

i felt you give up on me
no. i gave up on myself
i turned and walked the other direction
and you were calling me
how could i do that
i ran away
soon i could feel the distractions
totally changed my mood
sorry

after that, i stepped out of the room
i could feel all the horrible stuff on my back again
horrible
sorry
i tried to feel free agn in mass
i couldnt
i tried, i wanted
so badly

the protection was gone
finally the bomb dropped on me
right smack in my face
no more shield
i arrived back in reality
reality.
the last place i want to be
reality
im sorry i became angry
it is such a disgusting feeling
im sorry

the nxt yiss you're sure to hear from me
give me the courage
thank you
i feel your forgiveness
i feel so much better (:
you're the bestestbest friend
now i know everything will be taken care of (:

okay to the person reading whatever was ontop..
you may not understand at all
and i think its weird also lol
almost wanted to backspace everything
but whatever !

im not ashamed of what my bestestbest friend does to me (:
he carries me through it all

oh how many times have i broken your heart
but still you forgive
abba father have your way

-end-
i heart you bestestbest friend, jesus (:

i need someone to scold me
scold me
scold me
scold me
scold me
please
i need to do my homework
scold me, cos im not doing any

still one of my favourites
what i like about you - lillix


-end-

i dont wanna do anyt
everyone's ( at least all the teachers) saying nxt term is short
must study now
must listen
must not play
must whatever

i dont wanna do anyt
i still havnt even fin some of the obs hw
i dont wanna do anyt
there's so many things to do
i dont wanna do anyt
where to start, what to do
i dont wanna do anyt
cant i stay in church,
i dont have to do anyt
there's aircon
there's silence
there's slow-ness
there's calm
there's my bestestbestfriend

i saw this:
'' i miss you my friend...pls come back soon- to my dear friend louis''
it was is merlyn's pm wth(whythehell) do i have her contact ?
i think its funny
she nvr talked to louis before

the word of the day : [kawrd-bored]

-end-
my results suck. thanks anyway

went to the library ytd
like finally !
last min decision anw...after the lunch at airport
so i went alone not exactly alone if u all kno what i mean (: there's my bestestbestfriend with me 24/7
anyways, i only borrowed 2 bks

scared no time read
andand i like to go to the library
cause like u can see many diff types of ppl in there
and some, u wouldnt believe would even touch a book; i saw there
i think someone should write a book abt me HAHA i wish~

ok the bk i jus fin reading











stargirl by dont know who
ok i judge a book by its cover/title so yea
mostly nice cover = nice story haha
u wont see me borrowing a book titled '' farmer billy's happy farm ''
and it would be worse if there was an ugly picture infront haha
i would borrow a book titled '' toothpaste ''
with a cute toothpaste picture infront
haha

ok anw the story is nicenice and nice
abt this new girl being totally different in sch
wearing long dresses
no make up ( its a american book so yea..all that stuff)
she says hi to everyone she walks past
she sings happy birthday to ppl that she doesnt kno
but she knows thier name n bday
she puts a vase on her table and a daisy in it everyday
she cheers at everything
and she is totally herself

ok thats just the start
i highly encourage ppl to read it (:
it gets you thinking

-end-

i am bored.
i tried to do maths homework
i only wrote the qn no. (:
O: i have gotta change i tell ya

oyeaa i watched the olympics this morning
cos like that was all they were showing
and the spongebob ep was a repeat D:
the gymnastics damn scary la
like can fall anytime
and now i kno GYMNASTS CAN FLY !
one fell down anw..but her routine was super

and i also watched the womans hockey
the jap jersey is nice
now i know how a hockey match looks like
my bros in hockey, i think he's lousy haha
but hockey's pretty exciting


ok this song is diff from what they usually do
but its nice (:
the usual is below which is also nice



-end-

nd celebration today
i think the parade was quite good alr
and we only had 2 prac dates !
we are so pro HAHA
ok after the parade everyone so high and take pics and all dat
and did the s-i-n,g,a,p,o,r,e cheer

okays and physics lesson was ok i guess...
didnt really listen
but we had aircon !

and went to lunch, walked all arnd amk
home
sleep
still t-i-r-e-d

-end-

i am super tired
tmr ndp !
and there's still physics
D:

-end-

common tests are so over !
= term 3 almost over
= i feel so old
yea whatever right ? haha

anw louis is going to c-h-i-n-a on tues !
thats super fast
to some place called tianjin
golden sky O:
but its far away from beijing
so cant see all the muscular ppl @ olympics
ok so now we see MADE IN CHINA we should think of louis !

oya the other day wen i was walking to the bustop
this boy asked me..
boy: eh girl, how to spell shout ar
me: O..o huh
boy: shout
me: s . h . o . u . t
boy: thankyew *continues typing msg*

haha apparently i look smart enough to spell shout (:
ok heres another funny thing, i guess..

=] says: eh
=] says: ur personal msg is ghey
=] says: LO
=] says: LOL
mich says: . . . i hope it snows
=] says: why
mich says: actually i should stop hoping alr xD
cos i was hoping these 3 days snow dan no sch = no exams :D
=] says: LOL
=] says: snow?
=] says: its impossible
=] says: hailstorm maybe possible xDD
mich says: i got see hail b4, in spore...and actually it snows all the time (:
jus dat melted so = rain
=] says: wow
=] says: some form of science?
=] says: COOL
=] says: =X
=] says: or Ge0Grapy
mich says: l o l u go tell ms suan/ mr teo see wat happen

=] 's name was too long so i jus put =] haha
and my pm was '' i hope it snows i hope it snows i hope it snows ''
haha ok so now u get it

and this fri after national day celeb
theres xtra physics lesson luhhhhh
what is thisssss

ok you all should go watch freedom writers
on youtube or sth...
our super good ss cher let us watch (:
touching nice show

-end-
happy birdday singapore
listen to 91.3fm for jokes haha funny

it snowed (:
at arnd 11+ when we were having the chem paper
too bad by the time the snow reached s'pore it melted
so it rained ): thank you lord, i knew it was you
anw lucky the chem paper wasnt so scarey after all
chinese was . i gave up and pretended to think of what to write until time was up
hah wonder how much i'll get

still a long way to go, but it'll be over soon
im still hoping for snow

-end-
the construction opp so noisy, like dat how to study huh huh huh !

i hope it snows
i hope it snows
i hope it snows
i really hope it snows

i've never been so scared for chem and chinese before
shit la
im not prepared !

chinese is just 1 1/2 hr
chem is 1hr only
and i feel so scared

maybe its cos i got the 6/30
got phobia alr
and like chinese...dont need to say alr

and i should go sleep now
chinese paper
chem paper
grandma surgery tmr; shes old; she might not 'wake up'
lord help

-end-
in my point of view; snow will solve everything

this is the time of the term i would never fail to say
I HOPE IT SNOWS !
cos like starting tmr tmr its chem and chinese ! and i '' love '' chem + chinese
and its like all the other horrible papers that follow ):
but everytime i hope so hard it doesnt snow wan
God is so bad la everytime like daaaat
H A H A You know im joking :D
but wouldnt it be cool ! and we dont have to go sch
me answring my own qn :
''no it wouldnt be cool, it would be freeeeezing and yes we dont have to go to sch''
lol and if it really snows, thank me n of cos some ppl will blame me

this whole year is full of last min revision ):
which is like 2 or 3 days b4 the paper dan start revising
and its worst when someone like me stones all the time
this is bad, really bad
i wonder how i even survived being in this class im not im slowly dying ):

i shouldnt even be here
-end-
i have a bad feeling abt this ct ): lord, help me